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Boosted by brib@bribstodon.xyz ("brib :neofox_floof: :Nonbinary:"):
zool@icosahedron.website wrote:
It took me a long time to learn confidence. In myself, as a technologist, in my technical judgement. As a self-taught late starter, without much formal structure. Easier to skim past things you don't need to understand and just hack away until it starts working.
You don't get much feedback. People seem surprised you're doing it at all. My early career was pure skills acquisition through rage at mens' disdain.
It takes you a long time to realise that a lot of what you see is mediocre. That the men talking you down are in fact a bit scared, their status depends on things staying mediocre. Not the very good ones, you learn to tell that they see and treat you differently.
But you can't trust your own judgement. Self-assessment of your own competence doesn't match how you're received, how you're heard, how you're seen. Creates an internal tension. To believe that you're any good is just inviting delusion